Weekly Review

Last week I was feeling a little down on myself.  I didn't lose anything.  I also didn't gain anything.  Jared tried to make me feel better but in the moment it made me feel worse.  It's hard taking advice from someone who has never had to lose weight.  Who has always been skinny.  He makes it seem so easy and so effortless...but it's not for me.  And he says he gets it, but how can he?  I try to reason with him and ask how easy it would be for him to give up his cookies and milk every night.  I finally got him to start eating his cookies and milk downstairs before coming to bed.  He used to eat them in bed watching the news in front of me.  How do you eat cookies in front of someone and not expect them to eat them too???  So he's gotten more considerate.  He also only buys cookies that I don't like, so I'm not tempted with them in the house.  Back to my point though...how can he understand if he's never had to go without?  He just can't.  This is one of our constant arguments.  I know he means well but it just frustrates me instead! 

I started the new shakes (Idealshape) last week and love them!  For the most part I do a shake for breakfast and a shake for lunch and get to eat dinner with Jared and Caitlyn.  Much easier for me! 

I did work out a couple of times this week.  Saturday I tried to do the Yoga on the P90X with Jared and it was so hard.  I gave up half way through and got on the elliptical.  I've decided to stay away from the P90X for now and come back to it later.  I feel like I can't do half of the things in the video's and so I'm just sitting there laughing and not doing anything.  It's nice outside again this week so Beth and I are going to go running tomorrow night again.  Looking forward to it! 

Weekly Weigh In:  201 (Down 13 lbs!) 

Weekly Review

I'm doing pretty good on the diet.  I love having the shakes...makes life a little easier.  I don't feel hungry or deprived while drinking them.  I don't like doing the cleanses.  So I've decided to return the Isagenix stuff and have researched other meal replacement shakes and I think I'm going to try Idealshape.  The reviews all state that they are filling as well and they aren't hungry between meals.  That they taste good (I feel like I'm choking down the Isagenix shakes).  They also have a 30 day guarantee so if I don't like them I can return them as well. 

2 more weeks with no alcohol.  I can't believe I'm going a whole month with no alcohol.  And I've been out with other people drinking and haven't caved.  I also haven't had any soda and only one Starbucks coffee.  Go me!!!  

I wasn't as good about working out this last week.  Last night Jared and I did a P90X video.  We did the cardio...it kicked. my. ass.  I kept up with most of it but there were some things that I just couldn't get my body to do!    

Weekly Weigh In:  203  only down 2 more lbs from last week but a total of 11 lbs in 2 weeks!  Can't complain! 

Weekly Review

The first week wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.  My biggest hurdle in this diet is the smells of food...they are EVERYWHERE!  The morning shake is easy since Caitlyn eats breakfast at school and Jared eats while I'm getting ready.  Lunch is easy, I've been bringing stuff for wraps or the other day I had a grilled chicken breast and broccoli steamed in the microwave and then I have a yogurt or cottage cheese.  The snacks are easy a hard boiled egg in the morning and an apple or almonds in the afternoon.  The shakes fill me up so I'm not hungry in between.  Dinner is hard.  Jared and Caitlyn eat and whatever they are having (even if it's fish sticks and instant mashed potatoes which I hate) it smells so good and I want to cheat.  But I haven't.  I've been strong.  And it paid off. 

Monday was my first cleanse day and that was hard.  No food.  All. Day. Long.  I drink this berry juice 4 times throughout the day and take these chalky chewable tablets and that's it.  I was feeling a little lightheaded in the afternoon so I had a half an apple.  They only recommend having a 1/4 an apple, but I had a half and it helped.  But by the time I got home I was so done with the day altogether.  I ended up going to bed at 8:30 after Caitlyn was in bed and Jared took care of Cole and put him down for me.  I woke up feeling fine.  Not even starving like I thought I would be.  Monday night I told Jared I didn't think I could do another cleanse day...

I exercised 4 days the past week.  Beth and I found a bunch of workout videos on Netflix...should be interesting.  No running now...it's snowing here and windy as all get out! 

Weekly Weigh In:  205  ( you read that right...I lost 9 lbs!!!)  I can't wait to be under 200...next week maybe?

Running

I've never been a runner.  Jared has always told me that running is the best exercise.  I'm not sure I believe that but I thought I'd give it a try.  Thanks to the unseasonable warm weather here my sister and I went running / walking Friday night and again last night...and it felt good!  Friday night we went about 3 miles.  Last night we went about 4 1/2 miles!  I think my sister has me talked into doing a 5K in March on Saint Patricks Day...I never thought I would even consider doing something like that.  Not sure I'll be ready to run the entire thing but I think if we keep working out that I could run a good portion of it!  And I'm excited about this!  Tomorrow we're going to try a yoga video from Netflix.  I've never done yoga but have always wanted to!  

Today is my first cleanse day on this diet.  Not doing too bad so far.  I'm hungry but it's manageable.  I cheated this morning and weighed myself but I'm not going to share here until Wednesday which is one full week!   

Today A New Journey Begins

Today I start my new weight loss journey.  A good friend of mine convinced me to do the Isagenix program with her and I convinced the hubby to let me do it.  It's not cheap.  I'm hoping that I can jump start my weight loss and start healthy habits and then keep them up without having to keep buying the product.  I'll probably do at least a couple of months if the first month goes well.  We're taking a trip to see family in May to Florida and I want to be able to wear a swimsuit and not feel overly self conscience in the process.  I just want to enjoy myself and the kids while on the beach!  If I didn't have this "deadline" I know I could do this on my own without the help of any program.  I've done it before.  It's hard work but it's totally doable.  But I've put it off because it's so hard. 

So I'll have a shake for breakfast and for dinner and a sensible lunch with 400-600 calories.  They also have recommended snacks and once a week you do a cleanse where you just drink their drinks all day and don't eat anything.  My friend's friend who got her to do this said that the first cleanse day is the hardest....I'm not looking forward to that! 


I'm also going to be working out at home and with my sister.  Eventually I'd like to join the gym again because that worked so well for me last year.  But right now with 2 children who don't sleep through the night and trying to get into a routine with 2 kids and work and everything I just can't commit to the gym at this time. 


I've decided to be totally open and honest on this journey and I'm going to do a weekly weigh in.  Hopefully this will help keep me accountable! 


I'm starting at 214 lbs.  (I'm actually scared to post this!) I was going to post my before picture...but I just can't do it right now.  It's bad!